Is sorry enough

Last night was horrible! As dedicated as I am to making my marriage work, no matter what!  Last night I almost gave up. I hate alcohol. I hate what it does to people. I hate who my husband becomes when he drinks. He was an absolute prick. Why should I spend all night crying afraid to fall asleep because the people he was fighting with might come back and he’s passed out drunk?
At 3am I told him I wanted to go to bed, and asked if he would come to bed with me. His response: he was two inches from my face ansld screamed fuck you. Seriously? Wtf
I started shaking and crying and thinking do I really deserve this? Am I that pathetic? Why can’t I just walk away? Will it always be this way? I finally told him he was supposed to be the one I turn to when I feel like this not the one who causes me to feel this way. Then he said he was sorry. Is I’m sorry enough?
Sometimes I think I’m the only one who wants it to work. He claims he’s just as committed to working things out. I am just having a hard time recognizing any effort
on his part. Im obviously still upset about all the drama from last night. I do love him and I know he loves me. I’m just irritated and emotionally exhausted.

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4 Comments

  1. What shit truck are these idiots shoveling their comments from? You need professional help. Both of you and quickly for those kids. Childhood doesn’t go on hold while you two figure it out. There, now was it so hard to say something real?

  2. Unfortunately, Ive been there. Try and look at the big picture and not the little instances that hurt. In this case…it sounds like the alcohol. I would put the blame there for sure. Be well and best wishes.

  3. I know it hurts especially when things get hard in a relationship, but let your love for him be the only excuse for anything that goes wrong….and believe that his “I’m sorry” is genuine, even though sometimes it may seem otherwise,.relationships are all about trust and believing in each other even if the picture isn’t clear yet.


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